studies. Why? Because I am a student. My life is so easy compared to the majority of this world. However, there are so much more going on in this world right now. So many wrong things. I, in my suburban bubble, have been desensitized to so many horrendous happenings, I surprise myself sometimes. I sit here and think, “hmm, what can I write about?” and I cannot help but want to list all of the current events because of my selfish reasons to not want to appear like an ignoramus. I’m the by-product of first world problems and I am contributing zero to solve rest of the world’s problems.
Other than praying that our sins be washed away in His mercy and grace, what am I supposed to do? Against the odds of this world, I feel helpless. My daily tasks seem menial, meaningless, in comparison to what I should be doing instead. But what should I be doing? How could I be a positively contributing member of a society, of this world, if I am unaware of my motives and directions? So many questions.
I’m sure that when various figures in my life read this, they have many answers for me. All are probably logical, at the least sensible, but I’m not asking what you can answer. I know God’s got it. The question is when can I hear it?
Do you wonder about the same things, what could be your role in this world? If God’s plan is already unraveling without my knowledge, who am I effecting? How am I carrying it out? When will I get some clarity?
… now back to LSAT studying
@9 months ago
#QandA #pondering #randomthoughts
@1 year ago with 48815 notes
I have no idea where the based statistic of this picture is from, but I can pretty much guarantee that men’s average ideal size is not 12… Men are just as brainwashed as women, and the reason why women’s struggle with weight does not end is because men also support this idea that skinny women are the only beautiful ones
and a size 12 girl would not look like the above. Nor would a size 4-8 girl look that bony. This picture is completely skewed, which also invalidates the heartfelt intent of the good message behind this picture.
I am NOT saying people shouldn’t love their own body. They really should. Whether you are skinny or not, you shouldn’t hate your body at all. But I am tired of hearing “love every body” being interpreted as “every body is healthy.” Chronic heart disease, obesity, type 2 diabetes are all REAL problems and SERIOUS problems.
People often tell me I cannot have a say in this problem because I am a stereotypically skinny Asian girl who doesn’t gain weight. But I do have a say. It’s not that I don’t gain weight, it’s because I eat right. I eat breakfast lunch and dinner, and I eat sizable portions. I rarely snack because I don’t miss my meals, and when I do snack I don’t really go for junk foods. All this I can attribute to how my mom raised me. If she gave us sweets it was a rare treat and often times it was a healthier version. Also, my Korean culture has many food items that are innately more healthy than deep fried chicken fingers. But even as I grew up and now living on my own, I always try to make the conscious choice to eat what is right. I do like baked goods and I am even warming up to sweets, but I know I should limit them.
And you know what really pisses me off? In messages like this, it’s almost as if skinny people aren’t beautiful. If everyone should love their body, why can’t skinny people love their bodies? These kind of messages only highlight the fact that women obsess over being skinny, almost as if it’s incriminating to be skinny. Because I’m skinny, I must not eat, I must exercise beyond necessity, and I must throw up all the time, right? wrong wrong wrong.
If people are trying to promote a good message, they should not compare and contrast different body types. The only thing this message is doing is trying to shift the ideal image of women, not trying to accept everyone for who they are.
(Source: 2qt4thishit, via carleighfromcarolina)
@1 year ago with 16 notes
#scallops #risotto #saffron #wine
On such rare occasions as tonight, when I don’t have much school work to worry about, I like to let my inner food snob cook elaborate meals for dinner and get tipsy off of wine with friends. I might be a 35 year old living in a 22 year old’s body. Saffron risotto with sauteed butternut squash & seared scallops